Monday, October 8, 2007

The Birth of Mila

Ok. I finally had my sweet little girl!! I was just feeling like it was hopeless Saturday, the 6th, when I decided to make myself forget by making tons of plans for Sunday.

Well, that seems to have been the trick for me. At about 3am my water broke. I called the delivery ward and they said to try to get some sleep since I wasnt having regular contractions and the water was clear. About 10 minutes later, I see some green in the water, call back, and they need me in to make sure baby is ok. Im still not thinking "its happenning".

As we get ready to go, I start having horrible menstrual type pains, but figure it cant be real contractions so dont get too hopped up. Over the next 20 minutes, driving to the hospital, these "not real" contractions become very painful and regular. Is this it??

It is it!!

We get to the hospital at about 4:15, get checked and am back down from a 4 to a 3. So disappointing. I try to walk through the pains but it is becoming very difficult. We finally get a room about 5:30. I am re-checked and am at a 5. We wait a while for the bath I requested and the midwife comes back and I realize a bath aint gonna happen!

At that time I am re-checked and am at a 7, but while being checked I have a contraction and go to an 8. This is about 7 am. I go to pee just in case, and while in there have pushing urges. Scary! I tell the midwife that I need to push and she says Im not ready. I tell her to please check me again. She does and I am SO ready. I cant control the pushing.

I start feeling wild. Picture the Exorcist. Levitations and heads spinning. I wanted an epidural but there was just no way. So I start the real pushing and after I think 6 contractions she has her head half out. I gotta tell you, ladies, this is the most horrendous thing you will ever feel! The midwife is holding me open so I can keep pushing. I finally get to the next contraction and push her all the way out. It was so hideously painful...

But oh my goodness. To look down and see my beautiful, well ok slimy, baby girl. Its the most amazing thing I have ever seen. Or felt. Or smelled, but thats another tale.

On October 7th at 8:01 am, I saw my baby girl for the first time. She is in perfect health. Weighed in at 8.5 lbs and is 20.5 inches long. She has wavy dark hair like her daddy. She has a beautiful scream, that we hear often as my milk isnt in yet, and loves to be snuggled super close.

The miracle that is Mila Belle Petersson has finally shown herself, and it is truly amazing!

So happy to no longer feel forever pregnant!!
Thanks for reading my super long birth story.

Saturday, October 6, 2007

Latent Labor

Ok, so many of you are now waiting to hear news because I was heading for the hospital Thursday afternoon. As you can guess, I'm home now. Things are stalled, but went like this:

Thursday morning I woke up with a very "different" feeling. One of uncertainty and almost urgency. Not an urgency to do anything in particular, just a feeling of being rushed and restless. But not a feeling of "this is it". SO I do a few things around the house and settle on the sofa to watch some TV with my faithful companion, Neko. At about noon I notice that I have been having contractions. I haven't had many at all since my fore-water broke a few weeks ago. This is interesting. I get hopeful and eat a sort of big lunch. By the end of that I realize that they are coming stronger, longer, and pretty regularly. I'm not one to time things, but I was guessing about 8 minutes apart. I called Marcus to ask him to call the labor ward and tell them we are coming in that night after he gets off work. I then, being as vane as I am, took a shower so my hair would at least be clean. LOL. I called my mom to let her know what was going on and give her some numbers in case we couldn't call everyone. By the end of that phone call I decided to time a few contractions and they were 5 minutes apart. I was getting so excited! I called Marcus and told him he should probably come on home and get me. He did.

We got to the hospital about 4. When you go in here, they always first set you up on a CTG (non stress test) monitor to make sure you're both OK. Baby's heart rate was a little high, but probably because mine was too. And the contractions. Well, they were 3 minutes apart. Very regular. But not super duper painful. Some women's aren't. I was getting more excited when I saw they were so close and regular. And this was for over an hour. The midwife on duty came in and was so so nice! She was funny and really comforting. She felt the baby's position and she was head down but face up. Not exactly what we hoped for, but something that should work itself out. She then decided to check me and see how far I was coming in progress. I was 50% effaced and at just under 4 centimeters dilated. That's good, right?? Yeah it is. She says I'm not in active labor at the moment but well on my way.

We all decide its a good idea for Marcus and me to go have some dinner and walk around a little and come back. We went to the ultimate walking place: IKEA. They have good food and so much space to walk in. I felt ridiculous at times walking all bendy-overy and stopping at weird items to breathe through a contraction. But its all worth it, right? Maybe.

We get back to the hospital about 8 and do another CTG. Baby is sleeping and the heart rate is a little better, contractions still coming on, and causing a lot of pain in my back. (I later read that the position of the baby causes back pain, so now I'm not surprised, just irritated.) At the hospital they have these really deep, long bath tubs that nearly have you foaming at the mouth when you're in pain. So when asked if I wanted to try one I was less than hesitant! It was SO relaxing. I still felt the pains, but so much less. I highly recommend this to anyone in labor.

After the bath, I get checked again. NO PROGRESS. None! I was so disappointed. The new shift was starting so I had a different midwife this time and she really thought that I would go into labor over night, so we stayed. And she put needles in my head to "relax" me. I guess for some they work. She then gave me a shot of Brikanyl (asthma medicine) to relax the uterus so I could sleep for a few hours and a sleeping and pain pill. I am not big on taking pills and stuff anyways, but I really don't like it while pregnant. However, it was that or get no rest and possibly go into labor exhausted, which I have heard makes things much worse.

So we sleep. Wake up and after about an hour the contractions are starting to come back, but not as strong. I had high hopes that in the 6 hours I slept maybe I had dilated more. Get checked, and nothing. So we go home to rest and relax and hope to be back soon. That was about 8am.

At about 2 we come back to Kalmar to do some errands and just stop in to get checked and get some pain killers for my back. At this time, I am at a full 4 and having bloody show. But still not in active labor. While there I had another CTG. The baby's heart was good, and my contractions were coming but very irregular. However, while I normally have registered between 25 and 40 I had one that was 90 seconds long and went over 100!!! Holy cow that was freaky. It wasn't so much the pain, though it did hurt, but the feeling of "What is going on? Why is this lasting so long and so strong? ". I actually started to cry because it hurt my back so badly, and probably because it scared me a little. Just then, of course, the midwife from hell walks in and lecture me about being strong. She is all pissy because I cried. Its not like I was lying there sobbing. I just got teary. Plus, its quite emotional being in labor for over 24 hours already. I was pretty upset with that. And very glad she sent me home because, frankly, I don't want her near my labor. I need someone who has a little compassion at least.

Ok, so I'm home again. I have now been in latent labor for 49 hours. I have had some sleep, but its all been weird and uncomfortable. And I am having super weird dreams. I'm feeling really low at times and I cant seem to shake the feelings of sadness I have for little Mila being trapped in there, all squished up and wanting to come out.


It feels like things have pretty much stalled. I'm still having bloody show, but not as many contractions. I'm basically just sore and irritable now. Yay. We are both hoping that things will pick up tonight or tomorrow morning. Its 1pm now, so I guess we have a while to see what will happen!

Thanks for all of the messages of support. I really appreciate them. And the tips. I have tried most but it wont hurt to try again. And thanks for reading this long story of no progress or consequence. I just needed to share a little, I guess.

Monday, October 1, 2007

What to do on a due date?

Well, its October first and this is my due date. The due date I said was wrong. It was off by one week exactly according to all of my calculations, and all calculations prior to the 18 week ultrasound. But its still my due date. And nothing has happened so far. Its 7 am. I made myself very busy yesterday to try to get things moving.

After sleeping alot on Saturday, and getting up at 3:30am, I decided I was getting myself to go into labor if it killed me. I went for a long, fast paced walk with Marcus at about 7 yesterday, and during it I had the first "big feeling" contractions I have had in WEEKS! I was so excited. After that we had breakfast and I decided to keep myself up and active I would go to work with Marcus, it was mostly because it was a yucky job and I didn't want him to be bored and lonely. Its kind of funny. On the island they were having this pumpkin festival (indoors!!) and the owner of the car place decided it would be a great opportunity to set up a small lot in the mall parking lot. Thursday to Sunday there were ZERO sales. It rained every day. It was cold every day. And no one who is out looking for pumpkins in a mall is really out looking for nice cars. So, they had a little mobile home thing (with no bathroom) and we just sat around in that for 3 hours... laughing at what a stupid idea the whole thing was anyway! I did get out and walk a bit and try to keep active. (One would think I ran a marathon from how achy I feel now!)

After that we went to see his grandparents in Kalmar because we had an hour to kill before going to our for reals destination. We went to a magic show!! It was so fun! OK, not really. It was fun for about ten minutes. Then I started having shooting pains and thought it could be early labor and we got out of there at intermission. I was having several contractions, but they weren't super painful, so I guess they were braxton-hicks, but still. It gave us hope. We stopped at the grocery store on our way out of Kalmar and I was so close to just going to the hospital to see what they though. Good thing I didn't. Baby is still securely in there.

We came home and I was so tired I could hardly move. Plus all the activity of the day made me feel like an achy 90 year old! Add the cold I have to that and you get one not happy gigantic woman! So at about 8:30 I went to bed. I had a hard time falling asleep because of the contractions.. yay! Not yay. They're almost gone now. But at least I did get some sleep and I have some hope that maybe early labor is starting.

Its weird to think that one year ago today Marcus and I flew into Copenhagen and made our way back to Kalmar to start our lives here. We were really hoping that she would come today, just because of the significance of the date. We have done so much in one year, having our baby in that same timeline would have been awesome. I guess the day isn't over yet, so we will see.

Well, that's all I really have for now. Nothing too interesting. Mostly a statement that baby is not here yet and she doesn't seem to be too unhappy about it. And let me just add, because I feel I must, that I never ever imagined I would get this far. I'm excited she made it full term but GEEEEZ, cant we not overdo it for once? Overdue it, I mean.

Thursday, September 27, 2007

The Home Stretch...Mark.

Well, we finally made it to week 40!! Its so hard to believe that I am due in a few short days, and STILL pregnant. I have to say that we were not expecting this at all. All of our doctors and midwives have been concerned that I would actually give birth before it was safe, even. Well, look at me now! Mila is fully formed and ready to join the outside world, and I'm the size of a baby whale.
This past week has been hard, but not nearly as hard as the rest of the pregnancy. I actually think its been the easiest part aside from the first 5 weeks. The weeks your body hasn't had time to acknowledge the shock its going to go into. I have been sleeping on average of 3 hours per day, and my pelvic bones feel like someone has gnawed them in half. My back aches a little when I move. Oh, and the peeing. Every ten minutes. Its fun!
It doesn't sound as if I should feel as good as I do, but really I would take these little pains any day over the hyperemesis and horrendous contractions my body had no business having. I look at the sleeping issue as the worst of the bunch and I actually think it will help me when Mila gets here. I'm already getting used to very little sleep, so it wont be so bad when she has me on an every 4 hours schedule. I may actually get MORE sleep when she comes. Imagine that!! All the other stuff I know will go away within weeks of delivery, so I'm not worried at all.
Its amazing how your body naturally gets prepared for the huge life change you are about to undergo. Its also amazing that a baby can live upside down suspended in water for months on end. Maybe she is a bat.

No pictures this week. After hearing how freakishly gigantic I look, I don't think I can handle it. And I haven't really changed any from last week, so you get the idea.

Monday is my due date. Lets hope I have something to tell by then!!

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Still waiting...and waiting...and waiting!! Week 39

Ok so Im in the middle of week 39 and STILL waiting. Starting to get frustrated, but only because Mila has decided to hang out in the sciatic nerve area and cause me hours of fun filled pain.
What I thought was my water breaking was just some fairly uncommon outer membrane rupturing. Now I get to wait for the real thing. Then maybe the real delivery. Geez.
So in a nutshell, Im no longer enjoying all the sleep I was, Im in loads of pain and Im SO anxious to meet my little sweetpea! I finally met my new midwife yesterday, and she was pretty nice. She is getting a TENS machine for me to use to help with the pain now and in delivery. Cant wait for that!! My blood pressure is back to its low-ish normal and my iron count is back to normal, so I dont have to take the supplements anymore. Hooray!
I know it sounds crazy, but I am almost glad for the pain because it reminds me of what is happening and it proves Im getting closer. Her head is so low that midwife couldnt feel it yesterday, and her heartbeat is just above the pubic bone area. Thats LOW folks! And thays why I can hardly walk. But its so worth it. And surprisingly, I feel better these days than I have in months. Pain and sleeplessness and all of it!
I havent taken many belly pics in this pregnancy, but finally decided to indulge since its almost over. That and I havent slept more than 4 hours in 40. I also took one of my face to show that, as my mom pointed out, even my lips are swollen!! Hahah. I look like a pufferfish. And, yes, those are stretchmarks you see on my belly. Loads of them. (not the upper center one, its a scar) Enjoy the (freak) show! (sorry for the lighting, its a webcam and the only lamp I have up here is BRIGHT)




Monday, September 17, 2007

Monday Sept 17th

Ok well, I'm still waiting. Ive been to the delivery ward 2 more times and still no progress by Saturday. I went Friday because of contractions, and got the scare of my life. Milas heart rate was really high and wouldn't come down after two plus hours of resting on the monitor. She was pretty active, so they let me go home and said I had to come back Saturday to monitor it again. Naturally, I was up all night crying and worrying (certainly helping the situation!), so we decided it would be best if I could sleep a bit while Marcus went to work for his half day. We went to the hospital when he got home and things were much better. However, they had noted that my normally very low blood pressure had been a little high the night before, and wanted to re-check that as well. Well, it was still high. I was calm and lying down, but it was high. I don't have any protein in my urine, so its not pre-eclampsia, but I'm still being watched.
I finally got an appointment with the damned midwife out of it, though. We see her tomorrow morning at 7:45 am. Hopefully all is well and baby will be here soon.
I did make some progress Saturday and Sunday, but stop reading now if you don't want to hear icky stuff. I started losing my mucous plug Saturday night. It was one of the grossest things I have ever seen. It was alot, too. I thought that one time was it. Oh, no. There was far more to be found Sunday. If you Google Mucous Plug, you get a picture that someone actually took of theirs. It was a much smaller amount, but still. Who does that?? Well, obviously she does. Hehe. I also have started to lose some fluid, my belly is getting smaller even.
So those two things usually mean alot but I'm not having any of the contractions Ive grown so used to. Hopefully things will get going here soon. I'm very ready to meet my beautiful little baby! I'm scared, too. But I know that's normal and it will be wonderful!
Hopefully within the week I will have an update that includes a birth story!!

Thursday, September 13, 2007

Finally an update!

I know, I know, its been a long time since I updated and you're all on pins and needles waiting... haha. Well, I finally have my computer on a desk instead of the floor and our internet is now stable. So here goes.
Much has happened in the non baby life since week 35. We moved into our house on the 25Th. Its great. We really love it and it already feels like home to us. It needs alot of updating and spiffying, but its coming along nicely. We started out by painting and completing the entryway. It was the least daunting and fastest fix. I cant find a before picture of it, but it was gray and had this white thing on the wall that looked like a fence and had big gold hooks. It was very country. We aren't. It was also very old and falling apart. I wanted to be bold and also have a warm entry.



















We have also finally nearly completed the baby's room. It was a nightmare! First of all, there were about 7 layers of wallpaper to contend with. We tried to sand and paint over them, which is what a professional advised us to do. Well, it was great until the bottom layer decided to bubble up under our paint. So Marcus had to scrape it all off, plaster, sand and repaint the walls. Then there is the problem of firewalls. In Sweden when you have a fireplace, your outside walls have to be fireproof. Concrete. It has been so difficult hanging anything on any outside facing wall. But we were finally able to install things that we needed to be on those walls. In her room it was mainly the curtain rod that took for-freaking-ever. Nothing else will be going on THAT wall! The inspirations for the room were plentiful, and it was hard to choose just one design. But I decided I didn't want it overly feminine, but still wanted to use pink and birds. I chose the green to offset that and I am really happy with it. We still have to paint the ceiling, put switch covers on, and paint and install the baseboards/mouldings. I will also be putting a chair in that empty space next to the table. We just have to find an acceptable one that we can afford. That's tricky.Oh yeah, and put doors on the changing table. It looks really junky now, but it wont for long!


OK so that's what I have for house pictures as of now. We have done some other stuff, but nothing is picture ready yet! The living room is close, but we have all these shelves up and nothing on them!! It looks ridiculous. The kitchen is supposed to be done weekend after next, we will see. I'm guessing by then we will have baby pictures to share anyways.


Speaking of that. I am in week 38 now and am so grateful to be! Mila can now be born full term. That means so much to us both.
I was actually at the labor and delivery Monday, I didn't think I was in labor, but I was having possible infection signs so they wanted me to come in. Well, I'm fine, no infection, but I'm in early labor. I was so excited and figured it would be the next day or something, as the nurses were all saying they'd see me soon. Well, it turns out early labor can last up to a week. I didn't feel any progress Tuesday, but finally started to feel stronger contractions yesterday and by about 11 pm last night I could really feel her moving even further down. Its quite painful at times, but I'm sure that pain is just the beginning!! Now I'm just waiting for something big to happen so I can get the show on the road! I can hardly believe that within a week I will have my baby in my arms and not my belly.

Sometimes I wonder if I will miss feeling her in there. I think I will. Its a nice feeling that you really get used to. Its odd, and indescribable, but wonderful. I'm sure I wont be able to miss it too much though, as Ill be busy enjoying my little sweetie. I will keep everyone posted as to whats happening and when it happened and Ill probably give a nice long birth story for you all to enjoy..hehe. Hopefully that will be soon!

Off to get the rest Ive been warned I will no longer be getting very soon!